{"id":11027,"date":"2017-01-25T19:16:59","date_gmt":"2017-01-25T19:16:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/sca-recovery.org\/WP-sandbox\/?page_id=11027"},"modified":"2017-09-17T05:55:31","modified_gmt":"2017-09-17T05:55:31","slug":"recovery-thoughts-from-belgium","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/sca-recovery.org\/WP\/stories-of-recovery\/stories-of-recovery-in-an-internet-age\/recovery-thoughts-from-belgium\/","title":{"rendered":"Recovery Thoughts From Belgium"},"content":{"rendered":"<h1><b>Recovery Thoughts From Belgium<\/b><\/h1>\n<p><b><\/b>by\u00a0Dano (Belgium)<\/p>\n<p>My name is Dano and I am a recovering sex addict.<\/p>\n<p>I can recall at a very early age that I was having very strong thoughts in my head regarding sex. In the third grade (when I was 8) my very good friend Barney explained what he had found out the night before from his brother regarding sex and the basic acts. I can recall how I was very immature with this information and became very obsessed with thinking about sex and all the words that would describe it. I was very attracted to girls and wanted to spend time with them rather than playing sports. I can recall the excitement of passing notes in class and having crushes on a couple of girls when I was in the 6th grade, although I had already had a neighbor girl that I really liked and we were kissing at the age of 6 and 7. I lost my virginity when I was 17 in high school and I recall how my girlfriend wanted to marry me and feeling scared about that.<\/p>\n<p>I was married at the age of 25 and soon after found that I was secretly going to nude dancing places and going about once a week and spending quite a bit of money. My first wife and I divorced after being together for 12 years and married for a total of 7. I remarried 2 years later and we now have 3 lovely children. I have found that I stopped going to the nude dancing places but I have allowed porn and lusting to slip back into my life. Last year in August my father died and after flying to the States for the funeral I returned back to Europe and my family stayed behind for about a week. During that time I went on the Internet for a few days losing a lot of sleep and looking at everything possible. I was so embarrassed and tired. I rebuilt the operating system to hide my evidence of going on the Internet and looking at porn. That&#8217;s when I got an e-mail from a friend I met in another 12 step program and it had a link to the SCA site. From there I went online and started to feel like I had a chance to recover and feel better about myself.<\/p>\n<p>My sobriety has had its ups and downs, but I know there is a place for me to go and be able to talk with people who share the same issues and problems. I have learned that it is important to take things slowly and not demand perfection.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Recovery Thoughts From Belgium by\u00a0Dano (Belgium) My name is Dano and I am a recovering sex addict. I can recall at a very early age that I was having very strong thoughts in my head regarding sex. In the third grade (when I was 8) my very good friend Barney explained what he had found [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":7,"featured_media":0,"parent":12382,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-11027","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/sca-recovery.org\/WP\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/11027","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/sca-recovery.org\/WP\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/sca-recovery.org\/WP\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sca-recovery.org\/WP\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/7"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sca-recovery.org\/WP\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=11027"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/sca-recovery.org\/WP\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/11027\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12416,"href":"https:\/\/sca-recovery.org\/WP\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/11027\/revisions\/12416"}],"up":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sca-recovery.org\/WP\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/pages\/12382"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/sca-recovery.org\/WP\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=11027"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}